It's in the mail!

I just mailed our dossier!!!  Please pray that it arrives safely... and that I didn't make any mistakes!  I also mailed a package to Jude!  We were able to send him a photo book and a lullaby CD.  As soon as our dossier is logged in, his caregivers will tell him that he has a FAMILY!!! 

Thanks to another adoptive Momma, we have been in contact with a foster home in Beijing.  We will be volunteering there for a few days before heading to Shanghai to meet Jude.  I've started collecting hats for the kids.  I'm so thankful for the people helping me with this project!  I got these in the mail today... So CUTE!

John 15:12

My heart hurts today and my arms are aching to hold my baby.  I pray so often that someone will take a few minutes today to hold Jude… to just love on him.  With 700 other kids in the orphanage, I’m sure the caregivers are extremely busy! The thought of one of them taking the time to show love to Jude makes me happier than you can imagine! 

 

Then it hit me…  All 700 of these orphans are God’s children!  The love and desperation I feel for Jude is just a fraction of the love God has for him.  The world is full of God's children.  So many who are lonely, hurting, and just needing someone to stop being “busy” for a couple of minutes and just show them love.  I wonder how that makes God feel. I wonder how many opportunities I have missed because I have been too “busy”.  God, break my heart for what breaks yours.

"My command is this:  Love each other as I have loved you."  John 15:12

I Saw What I Saw

I saw what I saw and I can't forget it
I heard what I heard and I can't go back
I know what I know and I can't deny it

something on the road, cut me to the soul

your pain has changed me
your dream inspires
your face a memory
your hope a fire
your courage asks me what I'm afraid of
and what I know of love

we've done what we've done and we can't erase it
we are what we are and it's more than enough
we have what we have but it's no substitution

something on the road, cut me to the soul

I say what I say with no hesitation
I have what I have but I'm giving it up
I do what I do with deep conviction

something on the road, cut me to the soul

your courage asks me what I’m afraid of
your courage asks me what I am made of
your courage asks me what I’m afraid of
and what I know of love
and what I know of God

By Sara Groves



Sunday Snapshot

A little sneak peek

I wish I could share more!  Trust me... he's PRECIOUS!

Exciting news!

I’m super excited to announce… we are having a beautiful baby boy!  He is just over a year old.  He has chubby little cheeks, a beautiful smile, and bright eyes.  I wish I could share a picture… because he is just so darn cute… and because I’m super excited to show him off!  His caregiver says that he is active, social, and a little naughty!  Ha… He’ll fit in well!  He was born without a right hand… but, they say that he doesn’t let that hold him back.  Now, before you read any further… go back to the top and read the verse in the title picture.

…..(waiting)…. 

 A fear of mine going into this was, how do you know?  How do you know that this is your child?  What if we accepted a referral for the wrong child.  Does this sound crazy?  I really need to stop worrying!  Throughout the adoption process, Isaiah 41:13 has been such a comfort to me.  When I started this blog, I decided to use it in the title.  I remember wondering why he said “right hand”.   Was there something significant about a right hand?  Do you think it is a coincidence that out of all of the verses, this is the one that I haven’t been able to get out of my head!  I think it’s a God thing!  :)

Some things I’ve learned from my kids….

Mia taught me that I LOVE being a mommy!  I absolutely LOVE it!!!  Sawyer taught me that there is no limit to the love I have in my heart.  I remember being worried that I would never be able to love another child as much as I love Mia.  Sawyer quickly laid my fears to rest!  I have already learned some important lessons from our new baby … and we haven’t even met yet.  Baby #3 is teaching me that God loves all of my kids more than I can even imagine!  I KNOW this… so, why do I still struggle?  My heart aches because we have a baby out there somewhere and I have no control over what is happening with our child.  This part is REALLY hard for me!  I know that God is in control… but, I keep fighting for the steering wheel.   Our new baby is teaching me, every day, to trust God!  Even when it hurts, even when I don’t understand, and even when the waiting seems like it will never end… I need to trust God! 

Be STILL, and know that I am God.   Psalm 46:10